Big Coyote Energy

Warning: This is insanely long. "Play Hard or Go Home" was my fusion motto. No offense to those who don't want to play hard or who did go home, this was just my personal thing. I wanted to push myself to my limit, and basically got there. Summing up DOFusion13 in numbers; 1 hole. 1 shovel. 1 bucket. 1 sprained rib. 1 bottle of alcohol. 1 box. 1 gift. 1 hit to the face. 2 punches to the chest. 2 cigar socials. 3 fireballs. 4 partners. 6 great meals with friends. 14 strips of bacon. 43 bruises. Countless bites. Countless screams. Countless orgasms. Countless tears. Countless friends. I stole this layout from @Harley_Quinzel. I loved the idea and it really helped me organize my thoughts into something coherent. Overview: DOFusion13 was amazing. I was surrounded, every moment by people who love me and care about me. I got to spend more time with my sadist than ever before. I got to present Daddy with the gift i've been planning for months (with t...

At least i didn't think i was. Because i'm not. I'm not supposed to be... In the last couple of months, the way i play has been changing.  I'm not supposed to be like this. Masochism goes against everything i understand about my existence. I'm hypersensitive.  Pain has always been part of a negative reinforcement loop. "If it feels bad, don't do it." It's like the fundamental law of my universe, followed quickly by "if it feels good, do it." While the mix up in interpretation isn't new, the realization of it is. I tend to play with partners who have a serious sadistic streak. If you would have asked me even a year ago if i could change the way i interpret sensation on this level, i would have thought you were clinically insane. I've been flirting with the idea of masochism, mostly as a a joke because look at me, i can't handle anything. I'm a self-described pansy. Tickling is on my hard limits list because it hurts. ...

What’s your favorite toy? Hands down? My Hitachi Magic Wand. That thing is an absolute life saver. I didn't have orgasms with partners (except Kamm after a year) without that thing. If we're talking BDSM specific toys, my collar. It is an amazing tool of control. I love when (people who have permission ) people grab my collar and use it control me, choke me or otherwise keep me under wraps.  My collar is from Ring Of Steel and i love it to pieces. I've worn it constantly since 2/10/12 when Kamm put it on me.