Big Coyote Energy

Hey everyone, I am here, i've just been busy, and or lazy and or distracted by cats. I've been doing a lot of event work and less chilling out and blogging. Have no fear, i will get some good writing ready to submit in the next couple of months. If you are in the Maryland area and would like to see me teach, i'll be at Touch of Flavor this weekend teaching Bottom's 101; safety in the dungeon, moderating their relationships panel and acting as a demo bottom for the butt drumming class. I'll also be attending two other events this weekend (i'm gonna be BUSY).

At least i didn't think i was. Because i'm not. I'm not supposed to be... In the last couple of months, the way i play has been changing.  I'm not supposed to be like this. Masochism goes against everything i understand about my existence. I'm hypersensitive.  Pain has always been part of a negative reinforcement loop. "If it feels bad, don't do it." It's like the fundamental law of my universe, followed quickly by "if it feels good, do it." While the mix up in interpretation isn't new, the realization of it is. I tend to play with partners who have a serious sadistic streak. If you would have asked me even a year ago if i could change the way i interpret sensation on this level, i would have thought you were clinically insane. I've been flirting with the idea of masochism, mostly as a a joke because look at me, i can't handle anything. I'm a self-described pansy. Tickling is on my hard limits list because it hurts. ...

Post a kinky image you find erotic. I chose three images to showcase three different kinds of fetishes.  All of them are extremely erotic to me in some certain way. I'm not directly linking back to the pages because the images are all located on fetlife. If you are on fetlife and would like the links to the pages, please email me your fetlife name and i will supply the links. This image, taken by TheHammer, showcases bondage and nipple play.    This image, taken by IceFoxx, showcases pony play.    This image, taken by HorseMan919, showcases control. 

So, i had a good Friday night with HarshJudgement and Kamm. Ended up with some predicament bondage, my neck is actually tied to my ankles. He pulled out the TENS unit after this. Good times ;) I got some rope even though we didn't go to Shibiarcon haha! Win.

Anyone that's spoken to me for any real length of time knows i love three things; ropes, knives and pet play. I experience those in that order. Most of the people i know are riggers (novice, learning and experienced alike) so i get to be part of a lot of rope play and the occasional suspension. i don't have a lot of "successful" suspensions under my belt but the number slowly grows. i love learning about how my body handles the stress and newness of feeling gravity interact differently on my body. How i handle the stress of the ropes pulling, my weight redistributing itself, my top pushing me harder and harder. My body is its own story of what the fuckery at best. Hypersensitivity, ticklishness, etc. i think because of that i'm a more challenging/pain in the ass bottom, sometimes i feel bad for my tops. At least working with different people has allowed me to be able to read myself better. As has looking into a lot of rope-related risk assessment...

This definition of BDSM comes from wikipedia ; BDSM is an erotic preference and a form of sexual expression involving the consensual use of restraint, intense sensory stimulation, and fantasy power role-play . The compound acronym BDSM is derived from the terms bondage and discipline (B&D or B/D), dominance and submission (D&S or D/s), and sadism and masochism (S&M or S/M). BDSM includes a wide spectrum of activities, forms of interpersonal relationships , and distinct subcultures . Activities and relationships within a BDSM context are characterized by the participants usually taking on complementary, but unequal roles, thus the idea of consent of both the partners becomes essential. Typically participants who are active – applying the activity or exercising control over others – are known as tops or dominants . Those participants who are recipients of the activities, or who are controlled by their partners are typically known as bottoms or submissives . In...

So, on rapture da--I mean D's birthday (May 21st) we talked about what he wanted to do for his birthday, and anything he wanted (basically) was up on the table.  Since we were unable to find another girl for a FMF threesome (what we did for him last year for his birthday) he found a kink event at a club in one of the major metro cities near us that he wanted to go to. I'm confident when i want to be, but I'm incredibly nervous when I'm meeting new partners to getting into new sexual exploits.  We walked up to the door and I bumped into the trash can when D rang the doorbell, both made really loud noises which scared the shit out of me. At least he thought it was funny. We met a lot of wonderful people (but for the sake of anonymity I won't go into descriptions).  We were showed around to the different areas of the club and spoke to several different people about how they came to the club and how long they've been into the BDSM lifestyle. The club had sever...