Big Coyote Energy

Warning: This is insanely long. "Play Hard or Go Home" was my fusion motto. No offense to those who don't want to play hard or who did go home, this was just my personal thing. I wanted to push myself to my limit, and basically got there. Summing up DOFusion13 in numbers; 1 hole. 1 shovel. 1 bucket. 1 sprained rib. 1 bottle of alcohol. 1 box. 1 gift. 1 hit to the face. 2 punches to the chest. 2 cigar socials. 3 fireballs. 4 partners. 6 great meals with friends. 14 strips of bacon. 43 bruises. Countless bites. Countless screams. Countless orgasms. Countless tears. Countless friends. I stole this layout from @Harley_Quinzel. I loved the idea and it really helped me organize my thoughts into something coherent. Overview: DOFusion13 was amazing. I was surrounded, every moment by people who love me and care about me. I got to spend more time with my sadist than ever before. I got to present Daddy with the gift i've been planning for months (with t...

At least i didn't think i was. Because i'm not. I'm not supposed to be... In the last couple of months, the way i play has been changing.  I'm not supposed to be like this. Masochism goes against everything i understand about my existence. I'm hypersensitive.  Pain has always been part of a negative reinforcement loop. "If it feels bad, don't do it." It's like the fundamental law of my universe, followed quickly by "if it feels good, do it." While the mix up in interpretation isn't new, the realization of it is. I tend to play with partners who have a serious sadistic streak. If you would have asked me even a year ago if i could change the way i interpret sensation on this level, i would have thought you were clinically insane. I've been flirting with the idea of masochism, mostly as a a joke because look at me, i can't handle anything. I'm a self-described pansy. Tickling is on my hard limits list because it hurts. ...

I'm pretty sure i'm straight. Like, 98% sure, because everyone has that 2% right? Right. Right... I'm apparently not cool enough, or not wired right to be attracted to people other than cismales with the standard set of equipped biological parts. There is the rarest of exceptions, i mean, i can count on one hand the number of genderqueer, non-gender-typical, or female identifying folks i'd like to naked and have orgasms with, but that is not my norm and it is certinly not what runs on my uh... Internal hard drive, if you get my drift. Someone once asked me "what really turns you on, Jaine?" And... It was a painful realization when i'd realized i'd never actually spent any time thinking about specific things that got me going. I had some basic things that i enjoyed but i'd never thought about it. That's when i realized it; all of my fantasies involved being over powered by men. Specifically cismen, specifically males larger in size than me....

This is a new class that i'm putting together. Love it or hate it 50 shades is bringing a ton of new people into the scene. If 5 0 Shades of Grey is your first foray into the wonderful exciting world of BDSM, you may find yourself asking more questions than the book can answer. This class is for you. A judgement free zone of education and discussion that is open to all newcomers. Why does 50 Shades of Grey seem to be so frowned upon in the community? I keep hearing and reading a lot of terms that I'm not familiar with, can you talk about them? Are the representations of BDSM in 50 Shades accurate? Are they safe? How can I get more involved in the BDSM community? *More information may be added later

One of my play partners, CurtisMercury,  knows i'm very particular about having my feet touched. My toes are a giant issue especially. He pulled out his 3mm jute just for some special fun. Kamm took this picture of CurtisMercury caning my feet after tying my toes up.  I actually like my feet caned. It's weird, but the sensation is so strange. The tops of my toes not so much... This is what happens when i'm good. Damnit!  My plan is to post some more "hey this actually happened" to me sort of things, along with some pictures. Not sure if i'll be blurring faces or anything yet but i'm not sure who really cares. Also, i won the raffle for the NCSF that BGSC was holding. So, now i've got my very own BGSC print! Getting it framed shortly.  Uh BGSC link might not be safe for work. I know such awesome people. :D

I guess last weekends theme was "Fuck it, i'll try it!" Not even joking. I started off the weekend friday DCDungeon for Fet101. CurtisMercury was demoing floggers and whips. I've tried floggers before. Big, suede, leather floggers curtsey of Silver-Switch at DOWF. Curtis had with him a signal whip. The difference between a signal whip and a bull whip is a handle. A signal whip is braided all the way to the end. A bull whip has a distinct, gripable handle. It changes the way you use the whip. In a signal whip, the fall (end piece) is usually braided into the leather. The falls are replaceable, but with a signal whip they have to be braided back in. In a bull whip, the fall is a separate piece that is easy to switch out. This is easy if you're playing rough enough with other partners to start drawing blood. The falls are often made out of leather or nylon, neither of which are able to be completely disinfected once contaminated with blood or other body fluids....

Anyone that's spoken to me for any real length of time knows i love three things; ropes, knives and pet play. I experience those in that order. Most of the people i know are riggers (novice, learning and experienced alike) so i get to be part of a lot of rope play and the occasional suspension. i don't have a lot of "successful" suspensions under my belt but the number slowly grows. i love learning about how my body handles the stress and newness of feeling gravity interact differently on my body. How i handle the stress of the ropes pulling, my weight redistributing itself, my top pushing me harder and harder. My body is its own story of what the fuckery at best. Hypersensitivity, ticklishness, etc. i think because of that i'm a more challenging/pain in the ass bottom, sometimes i feel bad for my tops. At least working with different people has allowed me to be able to read myself better. As has looking into a lot of rope-related risk assessment...

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This definition of BDSM comes from wikipedia ; BDSM is an erotic preference and a form of sexual expression involving the consensual use of restraint, intense sensory stimulation, and fantasy power role-play . The compound acronym BDSM is derived from the terms bondage and discipline (B&D or B/D), dominance and submission (D&S or D/s), and sadism and masochism (S&M or S/M). BDSM includes a wide spectrum of activities, forms of interpersonal relationships , and distinct subcultures . Activities and relationships within a BDSM context are characterized by the participants usually taking on complementary, but unequal roles, thus the idea of consent of both the partners becomes essential. Typically participants who are active – applying the activity or exercising control over others – are known as tops or dominants . Those participants who are recipients of the activities, or who are controlled by their partners are typically known as bottoms or submissives . In...

Someone on FetLife asked for an explanation of howDVP works. I know I already have a DVP entry in here, but here's an update. Also, holy hell. It's September! DVP stands for double vaginal penetration and it is FANTASTIC. If you've got a vagina and you're into penetration and totally get off on it, you will probably like DVP. I'm 5'6'', 150 pounds and I've been doing this for almost 3 years. I've done it with smaller than average dicks, average dicks and bigger than average dicks and all combinations. I've seen a 5'2'' 100 pound girl take two larger than average dicks and enjoy the hell out of it. Body size is not a limiting factor. Vaginas stretch, this is a fact. They also STRETCH BACK. You can go back to having pleasurable single partner sex within 2 minutes of DVP. Or at least I can, and so can everyone else I've ever spoken to about this. Don't worry. Vaginas in an aroused state are very flexible and ...

For those of you who are unaware of what DVP is, it's a variation of Double Penetration, in this case Double Vaginal Penetration (and for those of you who don't get all this scientific jargon its two dicks in one vagina). It's also awesome .  Because who the fuck would want two dicks in their vagina? Oh wait.. Me.  To get into the TMI zone... I have done DV, more than a few times and quite successfully.  It is one of my absolute favorite things about a MFM threesome. I've found that any girl that is interested in DVP can experience it. Even really, really tiny girls.  I've seen a  5'2'' 100 pound girl take two, much larger than average dicks on the first try.  Vaginas stretch, that's the story. The more aroused a girl is the more she can potentially take.  Not all girls are into DV or would ever want to try it (and I am absolutely certain that there are some women that have trouble doing vaginal intercourse with one dick let a lone two, and they w...

D, myself and a few friends attended PRIDE DC yesterday and had a great time. I've got 60something pictures, a link to the album is below.  They were all taken with my droid and unedited so pardon the quality. I did remove some of the terrible ones. I take a mean picture of an arm and the back of someone's head. :) PRIDE DC ALBUM You can click on the "play slideshow"  link on the page if you'd rather view them as a slideshow.

So, on rapture da--I mean D's birthday (May 21st) we talked about what he wanted to do for his birthday, and anything he wanted (basically) was up on the table.  Since we were unable to find another girl for a FMF threesome (what we did for him last year for his birthday) he found a kink event at a club in one of the major metro cities near us that he wanted to go to. I'm confident when i want to be, but I'm incredibly nervous when I'm meeting new partners to getting into new sexual exploits.  We walked up to the door and I bumped into the trash can when D rang the doorbell, both made really loud noises which scared the shit out of me. At least he thought it was funny. We met a lot of wonderful people (but for the sake of anonymity I won't go into descriptions).  We were showed around to the different areas of the club and spoke to several different people about how they came to the club and how long they've been into the BDSM lifestyle. The club had sever...

My feeldoe finally arrived (actually I got it last week but haven't had a a chance to use it until this weekend).  We had a couple of friends in the lifestyle come over, and the female half of the couple let me use it on her. It's interesting. Not as ...versatile as I imagined but it does work as a strapon. You need kegel muscles of steel to hold this thing in  a lot of positions, especially ones where you have your legs spread.  I can see this working a little better for use on men that I can on women.  I believe I read something about them actually making a harness for this particular dildo so I might investigate that. The pony end (inserted into the woman doing the penetrating) is pretty big. Bigger than it looks actually. But if your partners have been working with a lot of lube it may still pop out.  The good thing about the toy is that it has a lot of usable length so if you need to use a hand to hold it you still have a lot of the shaft left to use ...

So.. I was listening to NPR this morning (because I do that), and  there was a news story about a lesbian. She lives in Pakistan and is not planning on leaving.  She feared for her life a lot.  Not from the government but from her family and village (honor killings, etc). The story went on about how she fell in love with her best friend in high school and they had this undercover lesbian relationship until the girlfriend broke it off with her to marry a man and try to conform to the social norms. Eventually she moved on, tried to marry a man and two months in met another woman and fell in love. She divorced her husband (successfully) and now lives with her female lover in a nice apartment in Pakistan. She doesn't fear for her life any longer, as two women living together in Pakistan isn't that uncommon. It's also very common for women to hold hands. We should all be tolerant of those different from us.  I thought it was appropriate to update this entry on Marti...