Big Coyote Energy

Nothing is inherently bad about Tuesdays, don't get me wrong. They follow Mondays, precede Wednesdays, you know, the usual. Tuesdays are Daddy's date night with his Mistress. Tuesdays were my date night too, but not anymore it seems, for a list of reasons that shouldn't be as complicated as it is. I've been looking for another relationship in all the wrong places, People who aren't comfortable with poly, people who aren't emotionally available. People who aren't into BDSM. I wanted to put what i was actually looking for in a concise, easy to read format. Also, i always wanted to talk about what i could offer in a relationship, because they're two way streets you know. What am i looking for anyway? I guess the easiest label to put on it is secondary... Only because i have a primary. Kamm (Daddy) and live together and plan on getting married. While we may be looking for room mates in the near future, i'm not necessarily looking fo...

If Dan Savage has taught me anything, it's that people cheat and really it is something that we should all kind of get over. I understand, if you make a monogamous commitment you should keep it, but people are people and people make mistakes. People cheat for all kinds of reasons. Your spouse and you are in a sexless marriage and you still have a sex drive (which is not something you should be ashamed about). Your spouse has some sort of condition that makes sex painful, embarrassing or downright unfeasible. You have kids and you don't want to leave your significant other because other than the lack of sex, the marriage works. You no longer have intimacy in your relationship and you crave it, like any sane human being. I get it. I completely understand. I don't really think people that stray or cheat are terrible human beings. BUT.... I refuse to closet myself. Being your "behind closed doors" kind of girl is in absolutely no way appealing...

What’s your favorite toy? Hands down? My Hitachi Magic Wand. That thing is an absolute life saver. I didn't have orgasms with partners (except Kamm after a year) without that thing. If we're talking BDSM specific toys, my collar. It is an amazing tool of control. I love when (people who have permission ) people grab my collar and use it control me, choke me or otherwise keep me under wraps.  My collar is from Ring Of Steel and i love it to pieces. I've worn it constantly since 2/10/12 when Kamm put it on me.

Post a kinky image you find erotic. I chose three images to showcase three different kinds of fetishes.  All of them are extremely erotic to me in some certain way. I'm not directly linking back to the pages because the images are all located on fetlife. If you are on fetlife and would like the links to the pages, please email me your fetlife name and i will supply the links. This image, taken by TheHammer, showcases bondage and nipple play.    This image, taken by IceFoxx, showcases pony play.    This image, taken by HorseMan919, showcases control. 

So, went to the lady doctor (OB/GYN) for a follow up yearly. Last year my insurance changed for the better, all my STI screening was included, they said. I ran everything in February the last time i was there. Today, i went to have them screen everything again so i could get my 2x yearly STI screening to keep me and my sexual partners safe. Like any responsible non-monogmous person would. Dr. comes back into the office and informs me that my insurance will not cover STI screening blood work more than 1x in a 12 month period, but if i were experiencing symptoms of anything, then they would cover it. As i was not symptomatic for anything, they couldn't "fudge" it. Though since my GYN kicks ass she can write off Chlamydia and Gonorrhea in the coding for a routine pap smear anyway. But that's only two infections. What about ALL THE OTHERS? Do insurance companies not how how STI's work? Are they magically not informed that a vast majority of people are ASYMPTOMATIC f...

So... Fusion. That happened. It happened hard. And this is gonna be loooong and disjointed like most of my entries. Others seem to be more efficient in getting their feelings out. Reading their experiences, their scenes, their torment, their fears, it has an energy. I'm not a person for "energies" or "feelings" but something in me is tied to camp. I left part of myself there, and i found parts of myself that have been buried for a long, long time. Parts of me i believe only Kamm has ever known to exist. The parts of me that truly know fear, panic and exhaustion.  Fusion really was a good event for me, but there were parts i would prefer to never experience again, namely the storm. Friday ; On the way up to Ramblewood we stopped at a Tobacco outlet and a great dollar store to pick up some cigars for Kamm and a cooler for drinks. And i finally replaced my knife. Daddy and i arrived around 11am met Bettie_Rage at registration.  Friday it was over 90 degrees. N...

30 Days of Kink: Day 6 Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy. Uhm... I guess they have to do with pony play mostly. I've been talking to @Atticant way too much and he's got me all intrigued about breeding in pony play. I think it would be incredibly hot to be tied down and hobbled and force "bred" by a male human pony stallion. At this time, i don't know any real stallions that i could play this way with though. Guess the other stuff is pretty standard, gangbang stuff, stranger encounters. Stuff that is actually realizable now that i have my very own "stud farm." Haha, love it.

I'll preface this by saying i have NOT read any of the books in the 50 Shades of Grey series . One more time. I have NOT read these books and while i did make what was an honest metal attempt to fit it into my schedule it is not going to happen. I am not an emotional masochist. 50SOG does is not a book about BDSM, sorry to break it to you. It is Twilight fan-fiction. I have read most of the books in the Twilight series, because there just isn't a lot of quality werewolf shit around these days. They were also not something i would consider "good" writing. Sorry Twilight fans. 50SOG is a book that describes a horribly dysfunctional "BDSM type" relationship. It goes on to talk about how people who are into these kinds of things must have been damaged at some point or another because "normal" people aren't into this sort of shit. The girl feels like she can "fix" the boy of his horrible ways. THIS IS NOT HOW RELATOINSHIPS WORK. I...