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Who gives a fuck if I masturbate?

I get that male sexuality is something to be embraced. Guys start playing with themselves from the time they figure out they have something "down there." Us vagina-havers aren't always so familiar with our bodies. This is certainly something that should change if you are comfortable with the idea of masturbation.  Everyone loves orgasms, bla bla bla.

That said. I don't really masturbate. I don't like it. It's like a chore for me. Masturbation is the last option before insanity for me. There is a reason for this and it has taken me years to figure out.

Sex is an experience for me. Sex is something i do with someone else (or a few someone elses). Masturbation is something i do, to myself. There is no one else. Either i make up the fantasy or nothing happens. Either i dominate myself, or nothing happens. Honestly, nothing is better in most cases. I am incapable of dominating myself. I'm a submissive, dammit.

There is very little difference to me between doing the dishes and masturbating. I have to do prep for both, clean up for both, they're both the same level of satisfying. (Yes i like when my kitchen is clean). The difference between masturbation and sex is like the dollar store bottle rocket and the 4th of July spectacular at National Mall. One of those things is obviously much cooler than the other. One is exciting, and riveting and has my full attention. The other one, not so much. Sure the first one takes time and effort but it is well worth it.

If i want to hold out for sex, that is my prerogative and i'll most likely go ahead and do that. Please don't shame me about it.

Thanks.

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