Big Coyote Energy

On Thursday (10/24) my mom told my dad about Kamm and i's relationship. The non-monogmous part of it. This was a controlled outing, i gave her permission. We'd been talking for a while about the 'best' way to tell him. There is no 'best way' there is no 'better time.' Every time, every way, all this information is stuff i knew he'd never want to hear. Honestly, he's pretty open minded. My tester questions had always ended in neutral though confused answers which is all i could really expect from him, well, them. Both my parents. The only people in my life who don't know are some cousins and aunts and uncles. I've debated changing my facebook status but i do feel like that would be rubbing it in peoples faces, i also feel like my parents deserve some time to come to terms with what is going on in my life before my aunt starts calling them in a panic going "OMG what does *****'* facebook status mean?!" because she will. She...

If you're a masochist, sometimes you know from your earliest memories that pain turns you on, that it is something that you want and need with every fiber of your being. Others of us are late bloomers in the pain spectrum and may need a little conditioning and self reflection to realize that this is something we want in our play.  Join Jaine for a discussion on how masochism can develop in the most unlikely of people.  We will discuss: Conditioning Accepting pain Flipping the brain switch Who can do this  Why would you want to become a masochist How this may effect your play in the future  And more 

I won't make out with you because i don't want to *give the wrong impression*. I won't make out with you because i consider that a very close intimate act and prefer only to do it with those i have plans on getting more intimate with later. I feel that lately people have been misconstruing my actions, and my words, and it is something i've found rather unsettling. People making up relationships when there are none, or assuming friendships when (to me) i clearly would have not used that label. I try to be clear. Sometimes to the point of being offensive, with my words, my sentences, my syntax, to make sure my exact, actual point gets across. I don't play with peoples' emotions. I don't sit here, planning on harming people. I'm a physical masochist not an emotional sadist. I have triggers, fears and issues just like everyone else, i don't think i'm exempt from being told i'm acting like an ass, or genuinely apologizing for my behavior o...

Hey everyone! A few days ago i got an email from www.feedspot.com, a place online where you can pool all of your blog and web related resources into one easy to navigate place (it seems). I've got a few followers on there and wanted to take a moment out of my day to thank you guys for keeping up with the blog and thinking highly enough of it to add it to your feed lists.

This blog lately has had less to do with me personally and more to do with resources and information, and i'd like to find a better balance along the lines of things. I recently posted a 'wanted' type add, that i wanted to repost here. It details a lot of the things that i have gone through and experienced and goes onto talk about things i'm looking for and desire in the scene realm.  I'm not necessarily posting this here to find my dream-dominant, but if that happens i won't complain. I'm posting this more to show a personal part of my journey and maybe someone who reads can relate to it.  --- "Submissive masochist in search of Dominant" The title says something, but it doesn't really say a lot now does it. I've been thinking about this for a while. Months now, that a dedicated power exchange relationship is something is something i desire in my life. Daddy has given me his blessing to try to find this kind of dynamic with a...