The next step in the journey

This blog lately has had less to do with me personally and more to do with resources and information, and i'd like to find a better balance along the lines of things. I recently posted a 'wanted' type add, that i wanted to repost here. It details a lot of the things that i have gone through and experienced and goes onto talk about things i'm looking for and desire in the scene realm. 

I'm not necessarily posting this here to find my dream-dominant, but if that happens i won't complain. I'm posting this more to show a personal part of my journey and maybe someone who reads can relate to it. 

---

"Submissive masochist in search of Dominant"

The title says something, but it doesn't really say a lot now does it. I've been thinking about this for a while. Months now, that a dedicated power exchange relationship is something is something i desire in my life. Daddy has given me his blessing to try to find this kind of dynamic with another person, and if i don't actually say something about it, no one will ever know.

I know this may be confusing, or unusual, because i'm technically owned and collared, but it is less in a D/s sense and more in an owner/pet sense (regarding Kamm and i's dynamic). See, we don't really do D/s. He's my Daddy, i'm his babygirl, we have some rules but it doesn't go a lot farther than that. Most of our rules/regulations/etc stem back from the time BEFORE bdsm. They are safety based. Poly based. Whatever-based. But not really BDSM based.

My collar... My collar is actually my collar. Daddy gifted it to me. It is my engagement ring. My collar is a symbol that says "you have a home, someone loves you, someone cares about you." My collar doesn't come off. Partners of mine have full permission to touch and use my collar as they see fit.

Now, i've never really done dedicated D/s with anyone. I have relationships i can trick myself into thinking are D/s that aren't, that at least make me happy in the moment regarding this particular thing, but i'm not exactly sure what a "good D/s dynamic" between myself and another person would look like. Let me describe some of the stuff that has been floating around in my head.

D/s to me could possibly resemble the following;

Kneeling at your feet (and being engaged, or ignored as you interact with others. I would be something there for you to use 'Hold this' "Get that' 'Do this.', etc).
Service (cigar and otherwise)
Ritual (when i first see you, i do "x", etc)
(what you want me to do or learn for (y, z, a,).
Negotiated labels
Etc

Some of the things i enjoy most during play include;
fear play, consensual non-consent, knife play, needle play, stun guns, humiliation, dehumanization, etc. I am a masochist, if your ideal dynamic does not include the ability to inflict pain on another person and enjoy it, we may not be compatible.

BDSM and sex are hugely intertwined for me. This relationship, this dynamic would need to be a sexual one for me to consider it. It doesn't have to start off that way, but for me to get one of the few non-negotiable bases i have covered, i would need sexual interaction. I hope you would too. This is something we can discuss and set boundaries for if necessary.

Other non-negotiable items include the following:

• I'm looking to form this dynamic with a cismale. I find it impossible and extremely uncomfortable to do any kind of D/s play with ciswomen. I have not been able to find a place (outside of pet play) where i can be comfortable with that. As someone who is straight, i prefer cismen and biomen as my sexual partners.
• I would ideally want this dynamic to be long term.
• I would like to see this person frequently, hopefully at least once a week. Like in person.
• Being local or drivable is important. I have one long distance play partner, i am not looking for others.
• You don't always have to be a Dominant, or a top in your life, but with me you will have to take the D role in the D/s dynamic. I'm not a switch, i'm a submissive.

Chemistry is everything.

Anyway, if you're interested, please tell me a bit about yourself in a PM and answer the following set of questions. I suppose we can go from there. If you can't answer them all, or have short answers that is Ok. It's mostly more for me to get an idea of what you are looking for from a submissive.

• What would your ideal D/s relationship or dynamic look like?
• How long would you want this dynamic to last?
• What other relationships are you currently in?
• What sort of time would you be able to dedicate to forming an additional relationship of this nature?
• Hard limits as they relate to D/s
• Most desired types of play
• What do you like to do outside of kink?
• Do you attend public play events?
• Do you identify as a sadist in any way?
• What would you hope to gain or experience in a new D/s dynamic?
• Can you supply 1-3 references?
• Do you have any questions for me?

I'll update this later as needed.
Thanks for reading,
indey