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10 Day Writing Challenge day 1

10 Day Writing Challenge

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
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You were the event in my life that made me say "I will never miss an opportunity ever again." I missed my chance with you and i will always regret it. 
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I'm glad we're weird friends. I wonder what i was thinking about "us" sometimes, i wonder what i'm thinking now about us. I'm glad you didn't freak out at me when i confessed that thing to you...
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Sometimes, i just wish we were all poly. I am so glad for what i have, but i always wonder about more, or different. I hope i'm not being selfish, i just wonder what your love actually looks like.
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I don't hate you, but i sure don't like you. It's just a dark cloud for you. I know you cried, and apologized, but by then it was worthless. I hope you're happy now, and better. Whoever shares your life with you deserves to be treated better than you treated me. I still wouldn't piss on you to put you out, but i spend a lot less energy being angry at you.
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Sometimes i'm not sure if you like me or hate me. :/
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I love you. You're like my bestest lady friend. You are awesome, and you mean a lot to me.

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I am so glad you're happy, but i am so sad you're far away. I haven't seen you in years but every time we talk on the phone it's like we just saw each other four seconds ago. Fuck that dude, and tell me about it. I miss you.
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I don't know whether to hate you or love you. I wish you loved me, i wish you could talk. But it isn't meant to be.
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More wishes. So many more wishes. I've noticed the attention, and i appreciate it so much. Hearing from you makes me so happy, even happier when certain things are mentioned, or implied or negotiated.
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You are my love. You are my anchor. You are me.
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